I feel like we all have plans for our lives. They change often and most of the time are nothing like what life turns out like. These plans can be small like the college we see ourselves going to and then the reality of where we go. They can be bigger like the kind of person you think you will grow up to be and the kind of career you want to have and the reality that neither of those things turn out to be like you want it. Then there are the kind of plans that are a little more vague. You want a big house in the city, 3 kids, and a picket fence. Well life isn’t picket fences. Plans change. Plans go awry. Life lets you down. Life surprises you and surprises the plans you thought you had for not only yourself but for your family.
Life is not always easy but sometimes the best laid plans that go awry are just the thing we needed to snap us back into reality and reevaluate what we want, who we are and what we saw our lives becoming.
When I was little I used to dream of growing up and living in New York City working as a lawyer or editor of a fabulous magazine. My life was nothing shy of amazing- filled with friends, parties, stunning apartment, an even better wardrobe and the career where I not only thrived but was the top of my game.
Yup, I had it all figured out.
Then I didn’t go to law school but instead majored in English.
And then I moved to Detroit for work, not NYC.
And then I took a great job and did the whole thriving thing.
And then came Phil.
Next thing you know we were falling madly in love and my life took a new path. Soon we were engaged and married. Life was looking much different than my original plan. But I was still plugging away at my career.
And then came the news that my health and stress were creating an unlivable home for a potential baby.
Did you catch that? When I was little I dreamed of things, accomplishments and value in a very different way. At no point was a husband or family mentioned because honestly, they were never on my radar. I thought if I got married that would be fine, but it was never something I was looking for.
And then at the ripe age of 30 I was told that I had to overhaul my life if I wanted to start a family. And I did want that. A family. So, I overhauled my life. (You can read all of the details here of how I left my corporate job to find some inner peace, happiness and 5 lbs of love weight for our future baby.)
We struggled but finally saw the positive result we dreamed of for a year. Mich arrived, we fell even more in love. I started two businesses and my blog thrived. Juggling would be an understatement – but I manage and am happy.
But then I woke up one day and thought, “Now what?”
What do I want my life to look like? Where am I going? What do I want? What is happiness? How am I fulfilled.
It was some heavy stuff.
Because honestly, I am happy. Really happy. In a way I never thought I would be – or could be for that matter.
But I am still that young girl that wants to make a difference. Who knows she has to be taking care of herself and her needs, too.
Last week I joined an amazing company in a great role, where I will learn and grow. It took a lot of thinking, praying, coordination and support but I know this is my path.
Things will be the same but different around here. Look for more of the same and more posts on lifestyle, balance, being a working mom and sharing everything in between.
Thank you for your continued love and support.